Someone threatened to write a Zetsuai/Bronze 'fic- well, here's a (bad) fic before your's comes out... Warning- nothing explicit, but obviously yaoi in nature... oh yeah, and there is absolutely no plot whatsoever ^_^
Ramblings
Why do you chase me, with such fire in your eyes? You have your groupies, women who would die to be with you, to sleep with you. So why do you resist all the harsh words, the blows I land on your face, your body, and keep following me?
I don't need you... I don't need your love. I don't believe in love, not anymore. Ever since She killed him... and showed me what worth love really had for both of them. I will protect my younger sibs, to shield them from what I know, but I know the true worth of such love as in your eyes.
Then why? You know that what you feel for me is only lust... strange as it is... I know you like women, not men, so why chase after me? You could have anyone you want- don't go after me, with that lust in your eyes, that breaks down all of my barriers, invites you in...
You're insane, and I'm insane for accepting you. You... how could you do such a thing, to me, and then to her? I can at least understand why you even tried to do what you did to me- Passion out of control... Lightning flashing, pain, violence. I resist, and you hold me down, and shield me from the glass flying at us... kiss me, bind me, and then accept all of me, with your lips, with your touch... And then, miraculously, before all my walls are down, you stop- you hear my cries, at myself, at Her, and him, and you stop...
But then, I ran away... to her, a young innocent dreaming dreams of a cute boyfriend. I used her as a shield so I wouldn't have to think about your burning lips on my scar... your acceptance of me for all I was. She meant nothing more to me than an umbrella against the rain- but what you did... Why? How could you love me, want me that much, that you would do such a thing to her? She was a sacrifical lamb, on your altar of obsession, another way you showed your lust to me.
Still... I couldn't resist, even after I saw what you had done to her, to me. I couldn't stop thinking of that night, your touch. Why do you affect me the way you do? You are everything I am not... fire, passion- you were willing to care. You held me while I cried as She abandoned me again, and I couldn't help but accept your touch... your kiss...
Love... I don't need it... but you got under my walls so fast. I lie in your embrace and I feel safe, at peace. You and I can't last... I know that. How can we? But here, I feel like we can be like this forever... and somehow, I don't mind. How did you do this to me? Take away my rage, at the world, at Her, and make it into this sweeter, hotter emotion?
I see you now, your limbs entertwined with mine. I feel an urge to snuggle closer, to feel your safety, your love. You made me able to love another... to feel passion- Why do you love me? I don't know... but I am content for now because you do... I want to... I want to hold you closer, to give those hot kisses that you always give me. But not yet- I can't... but someday, maybe I will grab you, like you grab me, and give back every kiss that you have ever bestowed upon me.
"Good morning, Izumi." was all he said to me, as he gave me a small kiss on my forehead. He looked down at me, love and joy in his eyes. His eyes, so different looking at others than when he looked at me. I see him, and all I know is his gaze. "Good morning, Kouji..." Then I get up, to another day... life isn't so bad. Nights aren't so bad, either...
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